There’s been a lot of sadness in our “community” lately. I wonder how some of these women are able to get out of bed. I wonder how they’re even able to write their stories for all of us to read.
I literally cannot imagine the heartache, the torture.
I just want to say, “I’m sorry.” I am so, deeply, terribly sorry that you are going through this right now. It’s okay to feel however you feel right now. You have been through hell.
Why, Jesus, why?
Today is day 5 of stims. I take Saizen in the morning and Gonal-f and Menopur at night. Things are moving along, though they are a little slow because of the two months of Depot Lupron. This is the plan, though, and a slow start was anticipated.
What’s strange is that my hot flashes have gotten WORSE! It’s like the battle of the hormones. I wonder when they will finally go away …
My next monitoring appointment is tomorrow. Yesterday my estrogen was 95; my lining was 5-ish; she counted 22 follicles; the two largest were 7-ish and 8-ish.
I don’t feel great today. I’m starting to ache a bit, but I’m happy to know I’m responding.
In the back of my mind, I was a little bit worried I wouldn’t respond. I was worried that an issue that’s never crossed my mind would confront me during this cycle: maybe a cancelled cycle. I didn’t base this off anything. It’s just been so “quiet” lately.
Responding isn’t really an issue for me, though. I don’t take for granted my follicle/egg count. Since my egg quality is so poor, quantity is really all I have.
I just hope this $675/per bottle x 3 Saizen helps … a lot.