I guess I’m starting to feel discouraged. I mean, why would I be pregnant?
I feel nothing. Not a thing.
I mean, sometimes I feel little things—but I basically feel nothing.
I’ve put this wait on a timeline, comparing it my chemical pregnancy. I still have about a day to feel something. My period could start any day.
I’m just so scared to keep carrying this burden. I mean, what’s next?
I thought we’d “arrived” at the solution a year ago. Do I have to start all over again after this?
How much money is that going to cost? How much more time will I owe the world until I can finally have a baby?
That’s what bothers me more than anything. We’re running out of options in this direction.
Out of three good embryos on day 3, not one could have developed into a blastocyst? Or maybe it did, and my body just didn’t take it.
Ugh … I just want to not care.
And you know what’s scary? This doesn’t even feel like an IVF 2WW. I’ve been there, done that so many times, this just feels slightly more intense than a Clomid or IUI 2WW. That’s how familiar I am with this whole thing. That’s how normal it is for me.
I guess there’s still hope, but really? Why would it work for me?